Do you ever have a song that can change your mood so much that it scares you? it has been 5 weeks since i left New Zealand and around 8, thats 2 months, since i said goodbye to my Kraut friends. But just now, while sweltering in a Rio de Jeneiro night i heard Leona Lewis Bleedin´ Love for the first time since i left and all of a sudden felt like crying again cuz i missed the gang so much. Its an incredibly sappy pop song I know but it was playing the whole time we were hanging around together. Came out of nowhere to be honest but still put a huge downer on the evening.

I have been feeling homesick for the last few days actually, for New Zealand and Ireland. Spent 9 months in NZ and did not miss home once but now i feel like its just been an incredibly long, prolonged goodbye and i would like to get back to one or the other. South America is great but i am feeling tired, jaded of travelling and I dont feel like I am appreciating all the stuff i am seeing. I know people will say that its stupid to miss home when i will be back there for the forseeable future and that i should just enjoy SA but i just dont care any more. The idea of spending an evening in Castletroy just hanging around doing nothing appeals to me infinitely more than another week in Rio or the idea of a weekend in Fanore is vastly more preferable to a trip to Machu Pichu. Ye probably cant understand how on earth i could think like that but its true and has been for a while, a huge case of the Grass being Greener on the Other side i think.